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black_liebe
10 November 2008 @ 01:06 pm
It seems like I've been deprived of almost everything that I'm in need of right now.


Food

Sleep

Vision



I can't focus without these things.

My History class required me to disregard my current status and just write the damned thing.
And as the day goes by I feel worse and worse.

Nothing is getting better.


Well maybe my friends make me feel somewhat at ease.
So does my cousin

Which I'm currently chatting with via myspace. : D

Well there's not much to do right now...o.o

Which reminds me that I have to study for psychology.

That doesn't make me feel any better at all.

Once again i have to deprive myself to keep up with my studies.
of course it's my fault since I put myself in this situation.


Well, the weekend was....very boring but exciting.

I had this [pretty] long conversation with yvonne about describing my weekend.


I was restless yet very lazy.
there were several episodes of both.


Most of the days were spent with useful thoughts that did not make me stir my emotions,
which they usually do.


The thoughts made me just realize thing.

Some thoughts were of people.
these people are important for a minute.

As in they are not needed in my life, nor do I need them to survive.
So i can deal without them.

another thing that I like about my weekend was the time that I spent with my sister.


We are actually really compatible when we're not fighting


I've learned more about how to cope with her and not make either of us mad.
Besides

she promised me a tragus piercing.


I've wanted a piercing for some time now.

mostly on my lip.

I'll probably get that later in the winter.

But anyway,


She said that out of all of her 10 piercing that the tragus was the most painful.

So I decided to take it upon myself to experience it first hand.


:DD


 
 
Current Location: Kell'em Library
Current Mood: sicksick
Current Music: "Pistola" by Incubus
 
 
black_liebe
03 November 2008 @ 01:33 pm
In my fantasy I'm a pantomime~

There's an air around me.
And I'm wishing I never did what I've done.


Well there's not much to this week ..

Or any other week that's following.



Sleep is making me crazed.
My wariness is not letting me sleep
I'm losing sleep because I'm worried

Employment is wack.
It's always been wack.

Well transportation is a slight possibility now.



My father bought a new truck.
So he might give me his old one.

The problem is.

that it's old and it's really bad.
The motor is okay but the air and brakes need fixing.

I don't want to be picky but..

It's going to need some input if I want it fixed.

I can't do that without employment!

D:


 
 
Current Music: Pantomime by Incubus
 
 
black_liebe
06 October 2008 @ 01:33 pm
Not a pair of BALLS!!!



just a pair.

You know.
Must I be in a relationship?

Much like my sister, I seem dependent.

She needs to have a boyfriend to go through everyday life.



SOAB

I don't bitch a lot.

at least I hope I don't.


 

Well
bianca, has a crush on me.
I know that.

but Eddy likes her.

So, If I try to go out with her again.

he might.


Get Defensive?

 

Suicide?


Shoot Me?



Other than That.
Band Practice was yesterday.



Sometimes when people play together, they know that they sound good.

they know that from the very start they will  musically share a bond.

 

It's just not like that with the guitarists of my band.

Currently I play bass, because I think it wouldn't sound right without a bass.

But


Once we find one.

I'm going back on guitar.



 

GAH

There's much studying to do so.


I'll be off.



Auf wiedersehen.


 
 
Current Location: Kll 'em
Current Mood: bitchybitchy
Current Music: typing
 
 
black_liebe
15 September 2008 @ 01:04 pm
The Human Abstract.

 

A great band it is.
:D


Everyone should take the tame to hear them. They really do have something to say.

Well this current headache is not going away..I think it's the weather.
About the weather.
it's changed so brilliantly. I love the simple breeze that flows through most of me.

Well work still hasn't come hard.
 

And school is still school.

i can't seem to write though.
i procrastinate..but when I actually start writing my head just goes blank.



 


 
 
Current Location: Kill'em Library
Current Mood: sicksick
Current Music: That's What You Get by Paramore
 
 
black_liebe
11 September 2008 @ 08:32 am
I like the title of Yvonne's recent entry.



Recently I fought with my dad, again..

That man is never satisfied.
Just like me.

:D



Well I can't go to the gym anymore due to my lack of time.
I don't want to go during gaps because I don't want to smell bad.

 

but I guess I'll have to go during gaps kuz.
 

that's all i have...


Work is going to be stressful.

I can tell.
 

How stressful is it to be a waiter?

 

School isn't that hard yet.

I can cope for right now.

I fear I might break and I fear i can't take it~


Well there's not much to do here in the library. -.-''   My current teacher is really...idle.



so am I


:DDD




 
 
Current Location: Kill`em Library
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: Let It Be Sung by Jack Johnson
 
 
black_liebe
26 August 2008 @ 09:44 am
Today is by birthday.



But it feels just like any other day.


I haven't received any gifts...only the cool plate that Tat gave me (THANKS)





With the exception that everyone is yelling "HAPPY BIRTHDAY FREDDY!!!"
but as long as people remember who I am then I'm fine.





so, jason mraz has a cover of "blitzkrieg bop"



I suggest yall check that out.


just search "Jason Mraz Blitzkrieg Bop"





:D



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Current Mood: coldcold
Current Music: Silver Lining cover by Ben Gibbard
 
 
black_liebe
30 June 2008 @ 10:04 pm
Sobs  
is it normal for a man to sob?

Only when he's drunk..


That's what I say.


anyway










I'm so frustrated.


What ever good I have...
what ever it is..it gets taken away.



I can't get anything good.


I can't get anything I want.



(who does)

(a lot of people...)
(most don't notice)



I wish..

I hope


Things get to turn out for the better of

of


me

 
 
Current Mood: sadsad
Current Music: I For An Eye - Snish
 
 
black_liebe
22 June 2008 @ 09:46 pm
WELL

Airplane flights have never been my choice of transportation.



My mother is leaving soon.

Leaving me home alone for three weeks almost.
I bet I"ll have fun.




I just hope she comes back home.




..



There's been many distractions this summer.

I've looked back to something I thought I shut.

I need some time to clear my head.

Or maybe I should be stripped of my time..
So I won't let those things in.


Girls?

What about them?

I want to lay low as well.

I don't always need someone to support me.

It would be nice.



It's always the wrong one though.



Guitar has gotten better.
My body hasn't.
My intellect has gotten better.
My money hasn't.


I'll wait this one out.


Liebe. <3
 
 
Current Mood: nauseatednauseated
Current Music: Song to Say Goodbye by Placebo
 
 
black_liebe
27 May 2008 @ 08:18 pm
T.T

I feel so sick, and I feel I can't get well.
I think of it as a sickness...but more like an addiction.


It's hard to cope with it.
I try very hard to keep my temptation at a norm. But
it doesn't work.


It's really useless but.


I hate how it never goes away.




And when I do feel better.




I want to go back to feeling sick.

hopefully


I'll go back to feeling sick.



it makes me happy.





liebe. <3
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Current Mood: nauseatednauseated
Current Music: Amber by 311
 
 
black_liebe
12 May 2008 @ 12:28 pm
Things have been good with my friends now







I've lost touch with some of them but I will get back in touch


it's on my to do list.













Death has been a theme so far..

I'm not afraid
 
 
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: Returner by Gackt